Carry on Regardless

Well Millie is 5 this weekend, wow 5 years old. Not a baby anymore she's a little girl and a gorgeous one too :-) Millie is the double of Claire, sometimes i look at her and have to think twice and remind myself it's not Claire it's Millie. So beautiful inside and out.

Millie doesn't really remember her Mummy, she knows who she is from pictures and she knows she couldn't stay to look after her because she was very poorly and that now she is a very special angel in heaven, but most importantly she knows that her Mummy loved her very very much and tried everything possible to stay alive.

Claire went through so much, the pain she was in was horrendous but she carried on regardless, her girls came first, nothing came in the way of looking after them and seeing them happy. Thinking what she went through keeps me going when i am training, as soon as i feel like i want to quit or can't be bothered, i think of Claire how she fought and what she did to try and stay alive, i think what i am doing is nothing compared to that. On my ipod i use when training  I have a playlist called Claireabell. It has all Claire's favourite songs on, so each song reminds me of her, some more than others. The last big thing Claire and I did together was to go and see Take That, little did we know that day that 2 weeks later we would be told she was dying. She loved Take That and Robbie, we went to see Robbie in 2006, a joint present for my 40th and Claire's 21st that was such a fantastic day, memories i shall keep forever locked away in my heart.

Claire's Little Princess's